Yes. They where both…not ok it’s not even funny.

I was doing one of those nervous laughter type things, where I knew I shouldn’t have been laughing but I had to or else I wouldn’t have been able to get through that scene.

i’m looking towards…break down scene way too much tbh, but dean wouldn’t be dean

I don’t know if it would be considered outside of Dean’s usual actions. I mean look what he did after John died; he held his emotions in check and then broke.